March 31, 2009
Sasha, and not knowing what’s around the corner
It’s been a while since I posted about Sasha. If you read David‘s blog, you’ve read some updates lately, but if not, I’ll give you the condensed version. Over the past few months, we’ve basically been removing tumors as we find them. She’s had melanomas on her tongue and osteosarcomas under her skin removed. There was no sign of spread to her lymph nodes, lungs, or anywhere else, so we just kept removing tumors. It had been pretty much one at a time, but a couple of weeks ago she suddenly had an eruption of 7 all at once. Yesterday the vet removed 2 more, and one of them was deep and she thinks it may have gotten into her lymph system. We won’t know until we get the lab report back in a few more days. We of course have lots of questions about what exactly this means, but we’re waiting to ask them until we know for sure.
Sometimes I think, “I can’t stand this; I just wish I knew how long this was going to go on.” But really, when I think about it, I’m probably glad I don’t know. If our time with her is limited, would I really want to know a date and have it looming in the future and casting a dark shadow on our days with her? Absolutely not! I’m a planner, but this time, I need to take it one day at a time and cherish our Sasha and the blessing she is to our family.
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I am so sorry about all of this with Sasha – I can’t even imagine…
And thanks for your comment on my post. Yeah, I definitely agree that it is encouraging to see that the ministry doesn’t have to look a certain way. That is something that I love about Cru: it is focused on finding the ministry God specifically equipped you with, not about trying to make everyone into the same thing. I love StuMo and I love my friends in it, but Cru is a better fit :)
And no, I probably won’t have much time to write this summer because I will be working camp again… I would like to try to write a little bit on the weekends, though.
hi. i cannot even express to you how sorry i am about sasha.
our dog, maisy, was so sick when we adopted her (she was 7 weeks old)…we didn’t realize HOW sick she was until a few days after we brought her home. she had the mange, worms & so many fleas & ticks on her (she came from a farm in jacksonville).
poor thing, we have since learned that she’s allergic to grass & gets little bumps on her back & belly that sometimes cause her lose her hair in those spots if we don’t get her on medication soon after we notice them.
but, because of how sick she was when we got her, i frequently do “inspection checks”…checking her from snout to tail to see if she has bumps or anything out of the ordinary that needs to get checked out. every now & then, i’ll come across something that wasn’t there before & i start thinking the worst.
9.5 times out of 10, it’s nothing…but, it doesn’t stop me from thinking what if it wasn’t anything? what if it’s something bad & she doesn’t make it? how would i handle it? if i didn’t have maisy, there would definitley be a huge chunk of me missing. and, it’s something i certainly don’t want to think about.
so, i write all of this to tell you that i understand how you feel. and, if maisy got sick, i agree with you, i wouldn’t want a timeline.
just know that i’m praying for sasha…and, hoping that if it’s her time to go, that god prepares your hearts for it. :( please keep us all updated!